What is up with me?

It’s sad when every post starts with “Sorry I haven’t posted lately!”.. I need to get my butt in gear. Plus Angel was bugging me to blog and that’s a pretty good sign that I’m being a serious slacker. I’ve been thinking about a new layout. I really like this one, but it’s so.. simple. Who knows, I’m never happy.

We have gotten orders. In fact, we got them last week (update PHAIL). Jeremiah is due to check out here on January 25th. Yes, the January 25th that’ll be here in two weeks. We’ve started packing, but I’m not anywhere near being ready to move. I know the situation we’ll be in is for the best.. especially for Matthew.. but I still don’t want to do it. Jeremiah will be driving with me to Texas and helping me move in and get settled. I’ve already got a house that we will rent. Then Jeremiah has to be in Cali and checked into his new unit by February 24th. He will be there for a short time, then he’ll go cross-country for school for 4-5 months, then back to Cali. After that, it’s basically going to be training, settling in.. then deploying. The rotation for his new job is crazy..

We decided a couple of months ago that this is what would probably happen. We will try to see each other once a month – when he’s in the states. It’s going to be really hard.. I haven’t lived *truly* alone my whole life.. I’ve always gone to live with my mom or his parents when he’s deployed. I will have a lot of family and friends to be there for me, but they can’t be there 24/7.

I just hope we can do this..